I was pretty sure I ovulated 10 days earlier when I was finally night weaning Greystoke, so, suspicious, I peed on a stick.
I think that meant that if God led me to I was willing to go the permanent route for birth control. But I know I also meant that what I wanted was God's will to be done, and not mine.
Before we got married I told JT I wanted 3 kids, and to be done by the time I was 35. Somehow or another that worked out perfectly for us.
3 days later I was at the ER with severe back pain, sure I was losing the baby already. They said the Hcg levels were low and that I should repeat them in a few days to be sure it was not an ectopic pregnancy.
The back pain went away in a few days. Apparently I am just old and pulled something. The Hcg levels went up, just like they were supposed to. At 7 weeks I saw my 4th baby on the screen, heart beating away. And I tear up just thinking about it because I don't know why. I don't know why it is so easy for me, so hard for my womb mate twin sister. I don't know why I have been given this enormous pleasure of raising 4 beautiful children. But I am so thankful.
I attribute all of this to being old and tired.
He is so much more confident again. He told me with surprise a few weeks into school "mom, did you know I am actually one of the smartest kids in my class?" He actually thought he was stupid last year, He is reading at night of his own free will. In his spare time he quizzes himself on multiplication.
|At the inlet because....salt air is so much better than the smell of my kitchen.|
|The Dude got a fishing pole for his half birthday. As with all things he was thrilled with it for about 2 weeks and now could care less about it.|
|Aquaman's birthday party|
|This is my happy happy boy and it makes me so happy to see that smile|
|Ready for his teddy bear parade at school|
|Aquaman and The Dude were showing off some cupcakes so Greystoke grabbed a container and jumped in the picture too. But he turned them upside down and Aquaman wasn't pleased.|